this weekend doesn't count

Okay, so that whole concert ticket thing...I'll start this week, okay? No more tickets. However, I had to get some on Friday afternoon and then of course there was the last minute Dave Matthews Band/Jason Mraz show in Carson on Saturday. The Coldplay show on Friday night didn't really count as an expense since I bought the tickets back in April (well, unless you count the $10 beers and however much that little fender bender is going to cost us...), and then tonight's tickets were also purchased a few weeks back so that doesn't count either.

song o' the day...Lovin' It... Little Brother

the moment when your addictions no longer hide the truth

if you see me at a concert, please call authorities immediately. For your safety, please do not try to approach me directly. Let the proper authorities assess and resolve the situation as they see fit. Thank you, and good luck with your day.

in related news...

dear ticketmaster,
If i login to your system and try to purchase tickets for an upcoming concert, please decline my credit card or immediately kick me out of your system. This is step 2 in a 12 step program developed for "people like me", I hope that you will see the benefit of helping me with my addiction. Please also note, that I will most certainly call you and try to explain my way out of this request at some point in the (possibly near) future. I ask that you uphold this orignial request and again deny me the ability to purchase concert tickets should i try to do so. If necessary, you have my permission to call local authorities or my boyfriend to help calm the situation. thank you for your understanding.

song o the day... be mine...david gray (who happens to be playing a show in san diego the day before my birthday!!! but alas, i am no longer allowed to buy concert tix...right?!)

see, the thing is... my words are actually quite encumbered at times

numerology

1 cozy apartment... 2 housewarming gifts received from loved ones... 3 BBQ nights in the apartment... 4 houseguests in the month of August... 5 visits to Gordon Biersch since we moved to tha MV... 3 birthday parties to attend this weekend (Happy Birthday Ryan, Pat and Taylor!)... 4 concerts in the next week and a half... and 49 days until Britt and I depart for Japan (i know because the special calendar tells me so!)


song o tha day..."breathe"... tristan prettyman
(wow, i really hate to admit this but, mr a-z's album has gotten little to no playtime in my world since mrs a-z's album came out...)

but i don't so much miss the smelliness

I find myself wanting to smoke again. This is common for me though, which is why I’ve never claimed to have “quit” smoking even though I will go months without touching a cigarette. Then, occasionally, and usually involving alcohol or an event that I can convince myself counts as a “special occasion”, I will succumb to my desire and have one or two. This urge sometimes feels like a slightly uncomfortable and lonely pain similar to that felt when watching “Outside Providence” for the first time. Which is where I find myself at times as I’m not a “healed quitter” and I’m not committed enough to be part of the smokers group. My non-smoking friends hate that I smoke, albeit only on occasion now, and my smoking friends don’t get why I don’t just “choose a side”. I feel like SJP in Square Pegs, never quite knowing which clique I really fall into.

As I sat on my patio taking in the gorgeous view of the DSW sign (?) and finishing one of my new favorite books (and wondering how it is I happen to relate so well to a thirty something guy from North Dakota, who calls New York his ‘hood and gets to *gasp* write about pop culture and music for a living), I wanted so badly to enjoy a vitamin infused cigarette while enjoying my latest junk food for the soul. I agree with my fav musician when he describes the meditative factor of smoking. “I believe cigarettes are packed with vitamins and minerals!” Well, I wouldn’t go that far my favorite cigarette smokin’ man, but as I spoke with him last Tuesday, I was in fact enjoying a cigarette of my own. That’s it really. I don’t see myself running to Costco and buying multiple cartons again or anything like that. Just a temporary craving that comes and goes from time to time.

On another note, we had a great visit with my sister over the weekend and enjoyed all the things Clark and I love including, but not limited to, visiting all 4 of our favorite restaurants and shopping. With Clark and Jenn together, of course, there would be shopping. The only thing missing from this weekend was a concert. But with three more scheduled for this month, I’ll get my fix. Much love to my darling sister and doesn’t it feel good to know we’ll see each other again in a few short months?!

ps…Lana’s emails are the best and I wish she would start a blog… :-)